lunch with mel and angie!!! we forgot to ask xinyi!! angie got me a cake and a box of apple ring with a crunchie inside!!! :D THANK YOU!! and ashley gave me a card/paper or whatever you call that!! but yeah.it was crumpled and stuff!! but never mind!! i'll post the pictures soon!!
after that, vivo with my parents. got my school shoe /: too early right? and my mother finally got me the brown adidas shopping bag!! and my uncle agree to get me the black and red adidas jacket.when there's sales cause it's fucking 129 bucks la! yeah.shopping yesterday night too.went to look for presents but failed.ended up getting same wallets as my cousin and sister! and it's orange!!FER! it's orange! yeah.you're in obs now la. wanted to go crumpler but! it was closed already!! damn! should i get the black and red adidas jacket or a green crumpler!? hmm.see how's my collection tomorrow first la! (:
went chalet but back because my mother's not staying over and yeah.
i went there, and when i went to give back the trolley thing and walking back to the room, guess who i saw.hah.sharon ng!
and my sister forced me to bring her to swim la.it's was so warm la!!!

thank you everyone who wished me.
thank you angie for the cake and stuff and accompanying me this afternoon!!
thank you mel for accompanying me too!!
thank you kaining for the msg!
thank you ashley for the paper!! COMPLAINS!!<3
thank you everyone who wrote me a testi!!

14 has been a great one!! good things bad things everything!! good friend bad friends everyone!!!

and to you!!
you can just go and die already!! i'm super duper uber disappointed with you la!! i don't care anymore! yeah.you thought i was getting married when i wrote 'tomorrow! (:' as my personal msg! yeah.you think it's funny huh? i tell you! it's bloody ridiculous alright? stupid dickhead! empty promises is what you do. and yea.if you're trying to avoid me thinking that i still like you!! hahahahahah.don't waste time la.because i've long ago stopped wasting time on you.

yesterday night, i suddenly thought of something carmen said long long ago. it was during last year's flag day period.ahahah.and it was damn funny la! i was laughing to myself.and this was what happen:
after flag day last year, amanda and carmen wanted to go out.mel and angie too.so it's two different groups.but than i decided to go with mel and angie because i was quite irritated with amanda at that time.[but of course we're alright now!!TOFU] than than.they called me angie and mel but we didn't wanna answer.ahaha.than when we called back, decided to meet at heeren but they went of to tiong.so we called and called them.but yeah.they were with sharon and gang.so they got sharon to answer the phone
me:hello
her:hello
me:where's amanda?
her:ohh.my phone spoil so amanda lend me her's!
me:okay lor! [so stupid right]
so we called carmen
me:hello
____:hello
me:where's carmen?
____:ohh.she dropped her phone and it's with me now.
me:huh.don't fake la.
____:really.
me:hang up.thinking that it's real[how dumb la]
used mel phone and they still got sharon they all to aswer.so fine. we just continued walking around.
this was what happened.

after a few days, had mid night talk with carmen.
carmen:you know we went macs that day.
me:orh.
carmen:with sharon and ____
me:orh.
carmen:you never go.so sad right?
me:lucky i never go.if not i will just go home.
carmen:haiya.than amanda and sharon went to get ice cream leh. left me and ____ lor. so awkward.
me:ahahahah.
climax-
carmen:walao.than she told me she wanna burp.
me:than what you say?
carmen:i say 'orh'
me:huh?
carmen:than what you want me to say? burp with her or what? ask her how many times she burp already? or i count how many times she burp?
me:ahahahahahha!!!!! don't be sick la
carmen:than!?
me:keeps quiet.
carmen:eh.if you go ah.than i will be very extra leh.
me:siao.
carmen: if you go, than when sharon and amanda went to buy ice cream ah, i will say what you know?
me:what?
climax-
carmen:i will say 'eh! just now ah.i dropped all my things outside just now! i go and pick up now okay!' hahahahhahahaha
me:ahahhahha! okay.stupid!!
yeah.and i was laughing at this part the whole night la.hahahah. how dumb right.!

okay! when tofu's back, we'll be going to airport early for breakfast, than either go town or escape!! can't wait!
oh oh!! clique people!! if you're reading this, 13 of december, we'll be going escape together!! make yourself free alright? for now, thats the date!! there maybe further changes!!!

shopping and making ic with mel and angie on 30th!!!


fuck shit!
my father thinks i'm bloody attached!! to a girl![yeah.laugh all you want] /:/:/:/:/:
yeah.like to who la? hur? who will want me?
just because rachel ng called.my sister asked who.so i was like.why you so kaypoh! and it starts.wtf la.even if i tell my sister who is not like she will know who right? damn it la!! my sister gets me into trouble all day la!! fuck fuck fuck!!! i wanted to get a book yesterday and my sister was like telling my father.aiya! she read one page only one la.than she will go sleep already!! damn you fuck shit!!! she gets me into trouble all day long!! damn damn damn!!!and my father wants me to end 'it' yeah.funny right? HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAH. like end what? 'it' didn't even start how to end? stupid shit!! only believe her all day long! fuck hell!!! stupid fucking idiot shit!!! yeah.and i wouldn't even wanna get attached larrhhh!!!! please lor!!! stupid! he keeps saying he got young before and knows what i'm thinking!! hello? i'm girl!! and you're a guy!! how do you know what the hell i'm thinking? and whatever you're thinking is in your years,not my years!!! damn!! my birthday also wanna find fault with me!!!

tomorrow is the day :D

mel has been very super busy qith band! angie found job. sigh.
i'm so lonely okay!!! rahh!!!
and it's so not okay!!!
i don't want whatever that happened in my dream to happen!
please!! it's horrible okay!! I DON'T WANT!!
come out, i surrender!

HAPPY 7th MONTH SILLY!!! <3

silly!! you're leaving for obm tomorrow!! )': takecare alrights!? (:

i hate it when children don't listen to me okay! my neighnbour's at my place now and he's getting on my nerves ):<>

samantha's leaving tomorrow.sally, tofu and alot alot more people are leaving on monday!! my tian! i'm gonna miss them like mad la!!! )': but than, my twin's here with me.angie wants to go out on 23rd!!!!!!! :DDD damn! i'm not feeling excited to leave 14!! maybe it's because we;ve been living with the same person and same certain type of place and due to certain problems in mind now.sigh.emo partner agrees with me. damn! my neighbour is totally getting on my nerves!!! my god!! emo partner thinks i can't be a teacher ): nvm.i don't intend to be one too. everyone's gonna leave tomorrow/monday!! it's left with me angie mel ))): i'm like so sad now la.sally calls me a moron because she hinks that i laugh at myself when i told her i laughed to myself! stupid idiot! sally!! whose the moron now? man!!! CAN OBM/OBS BE CANCELLED?!?!?! ohmytian!!! )':

baked cookie again!!
this time it's cornflake cookie and it's yummylicious! :D
not hard!! :D i love it!! hee(:
i'm happy.
did nothing much today.
they're all going for obm/obs soon.
so it's left with me mel angie.
wells.and twin has got no choice but to be busy.WITH BAND!!
wth la! and she's gonna leave me all alone.
i'm uber bored la!! oh! oh! i wanna go eat happy meal okay!!!
they're giving strawberry shortcake toy!!!! <3333
i'm gonna eat happy meal tomorrow!!!
my sister's gonna celebrate her birthday in school tomorrow.
i was complaining how unfair it is and! my mother couldn't take it and asked me this
mother:you wanna celebrate is it!?
me:YES!!
mother:you call all your friend back to school la.than celebrate lor.
me:walao! holiday go back school just to celebrate?
mother:ya.you wanna celebrate what.
me:not like that la.
mother:than what?when your school haven't close i ask you wanna give goodie bag you say don't want.now you complain complain.
me:siao.i so old still want give goodie bag!lame la.
mother:orh.i know what you want.next year last day of school i help you celebrate in school okay.during recess at canteen okay?
me:but than it's during october leh.my birthday in november lor.
mother:haiya.you very noiysy la.
-.-'''
wth la!! where you get this type of mother! /:

i wanna watch 'my lovely sam-soon' okay!! i still have my cousin's vcd/dvd with me!! i shall watch it when i'm free!!! zhenxian is sooo cute!<3
ahahah!!! i'm gonna watch it again!!! :D

where'd you go?

9 more days

edit/
easier said than done.
tell me.who don't know that?
yeah.i wanna learn how to forgive and forget.
i've been really bring back those old problems la.
and i wanna learn how to listen more and talk less too!!
yeah.i need time!!!TIME!! maybe by next year, i'm gonna be a new person.
i wanna study! i wanna get nest year's book early!! and i'll start studying like some idiot! i wanna work la.i wanna go study!! STUDY PARTNER!! if you're reading this, hurry come up with a date and contact me soon okay! (:

rrahh!!
THE TOFUs ARE VERY IRRITATED NOW!!
so stop acting infront of us!!
yeah.tofu was also super duper uber irritated alrights.hahah.
beware! we're not any other ordinary TOFUs!! we're TOFUs that get very irritated once you do something to us.and we swear we'll get back at you!! ordinary TOFUs are soft, gentle and nice.but we're not! don't even bother to try!! WE'LL GET EVEN!!!
hurr.home the whole day.went out for lunch only.than home.my mother is addicted to chuzzle /: and she does not wanna let me use the com! >:(
the tofus are still irritated okay!! don't think we'll just let it pass! no way!!

edit/
i'm super bored la.maybe you all may patch up during the obs.you may twist the words and stuff to seem like i'm the on lying.oh wells.i'm prepared for the worst.

shopping with mel yesterday! :D
first stop was town.heeren.took prints and that was it.it was too boring.so we took a bus down to bugis.i went to buy earings.hurr.than ran in the rain to get to the other side /: she went to help her mom get mask.than down to vivo.walk walk walk.boring.oh! we finally got our bottle! yoshi than home!! twin! let's go out again one day!! go buy earings!!!
at night my fever came back luh /:
cannot go to food race! sorry kaining samantha shumei siqi!! ):
went to see doctor.yucks!!

fucking piece of shit
i thought we would be friends.best friends.
but in the end, i was wrong, so wrong.
i never knew you would say things like this.
and it's not like i don't wanna be 'loyal' right?
everytime when i'm with all of you, i get left out because some people just refuse to let me know things. and when you all talk about it during recess, ever thought of how those who don't know about it would feel. stay loyal.yeah right.just because you're still in the school right? what will happen to me after you've all graduate? obviously i've got to go with my friends right? i guess ashley and zhenyi choose the correct path from the beginning. and yeah.ever thought of the left out ones? all you know now is talk about super junior.and sighs.i don't know.i guess amanda is the only person i can talk to now.only she knows how i feel because she left, because she felt left out too.NOT BECAUSE SHE'S NOT LOYAL!

i don't know to go for food race or not.
my nose has been like a spoilt tap.and my cough is ):
how?

suppose to go sentosa yesterday but the lazy bone in me clled me to stay home. oh wells. yeah.i've finally decided to give motheer my phone ): but she's gonna get me a new one!! :D

i need a confrontation!!

don't come talk to me about loyalty

yeah.mel's house to swim in the morning.
out ot buy lunch than back to swim.swam till it rained.
went up to bathe.
we're bored so we decided to play monopoly!
so fun la.hahaah.we enjoy being in jail man! no need to pay still can earn.
hahahahha.than i left.yeah
sentosa tomorrow :D
SUN, here i come!

i miss mel
i miss tofu
i miss judy tan
i miss silly
i miss nameless
i miss elaine yeo
i miss you

i miss studying with mel.alot
i miss crapping with tofu!
i miss having chem lessons with judy, and her sickening voice
i miss arguing with silly
i miss having chinese lesson with nameless
i miss elaine's lame jokes
i miss everything of you

i miss studying with mel!!
in harbour front macs, we use to seat under the tree and study.hurhur.
we would study, cam-whore abit, study, talked, study, gossip!! how i miss those days!! well.a least mel keeps her promise on studying with me unlike you! home is all you think about home /:
wells.bye people!

i use to delete all the msg except yours.

i only wanna go to the park with you, seat on the swing till night, and go star gazing with you.if i only i can.that's my wish for this year.only this.no more.

yay!! i finally went school!! went to help out open house :D
helped mrs ong.hurr.and in the end we get to bake cookies!! :DD
than went lunch with jiaping and mel.
mel and me thinks that seeing ____ is a very sian thing for us.hurhur.
she walked me to the bus stop.
took 65 and went to meet my parents at vivo /:
walked walked walked.
home.bathe.slept! :DDD

my hands are getting very bad /:
they got so jelly like when i was msging.
only like a few msg la.sigh.
my mother wants my phone!
she agreed to take my phone and change a new one for me!!! :DDD
but yeah.i've got to change it with her for 2 days first la ):

i hate it when you promise to go out,
it'll always be postpone, than no more.

i hate it when you msg me,
i never get a reply.

i hate it when you smile at me
it never last.

i hate it when you msn me,
it's always some question

i hate it when i get you replies on msn,
it's always short.

i hate it when we look at each other with that expression,
seems like we don't know each other.

i hate it when we call each other _____,
it always rings in my head.

i hate it when you ask me to msg you,
but never reply.

i hate it when i'm out,
i see you with ____.

i hate it when i see your back view,
walking away.

i hate it when i see you with ____ going out together after school,
it hurts me, alot.

i hate it when my friends see you outside,
and i don't.

i hate it when i have to wake up in the middle of the night,
to check if you've replied me.

i hate it when you ignore me,
because i'll always be near.

i hate it when i never get a reply,
i'll feel very empty.

i hate it when i go out with you,
cause we never talked.

i hate it when you see me and pretend you didn't,
i feel extra.

i hate it when i have to wait 168654165456 years,
just to get a short reply,and to see you offline after that.it's disappointing.



i like it when i have problem,
you'll be my listening ears.

i like it when i msn you,
you never take more than a minute to reply.

i like it when i msged you,
you reply.

i like it when i see you being so hapy,
i feel happy too.

i like it when you msged me,
to ask where am i because i told you i would be around there.

i like it when you give me advices,
everytime i've got problems with them.

i like it when you tell me about encounters you've had,
i feel honoured.

i like it when you tell me thing that you've never told others,
i feel so fortunate to know it.

i like it when you msged me in the middle of the night,
just to let me know something that i can know even on some other days.

i like it when you msged me,
and never take more than hours to reply.

i like it when i just signed in to msn,
msg from you just pop up.

i like it when you walked from all the way,
just to ask me something than smile and walk away.

i like it when we walked pass each other,
you would just stare with no expression and say nothing.

i like it when you criticise(?) me,
at least you know that i exist.

i like it when both of us say the same thing together,
it'll be at the same time.

i like it when we stare at each other,
and you msg me just to ask my results.

i like it when you ask about me,
because i know you care.

i like it when you cheered me up with jokes when i'm feel down,
i know you bother.

i like it when your reactions are slow,
it's just so funny.

i like it when you call me for no reason,
i like that feeling.

i like it when you ask me questions that i'm not sure of the answer,
i'll get to ask you back.

i like it when you complain to me about anything,
i just feel happy.

i like it when i said that i was cold on personal msg, and you asked me if i was okay,
i know i do exist in your world.

i like it when you ask me to study,
you do care about me.

i like it when you say hello to me,
it shows that i'm not invisible.

stupid elaine tan!!!
she doesn't wanna be in same class as us!!
fucker! she can just go and die man!!

HAPPY 7th MONTH LOO KAINING!! <3

we were so close.

than than drifting started.

than we were drifting apart.

and now, we're still drifting..

further further further and further

i wanna stop the drift

*SCREAMS*

the henderson sec band were just playing breaking free.

so out of tune la!! disturb my sleep only!!

i wanna go out.somewhere near will do.

it's alright even though if it's only tiong!bored bored.

i'm starting to miss school although it's just any other saturday.

how bad is that? what am i gonna do for the whole 2 months!?

damn!! holidays suck!