CAs starts tomorrow =/
it's scary la.
and i think what i've studied is so so not enough.
anyway.i never study for exams one la.
thats why when the results comes back i'm not surprised at all.
but this time i really wanna do well.
but than,there's no motivation to get me to start studying.
i need some motivation man!!!


judy really pissed me off ok.
everytime ask her to send songs than she will have to go offline!!!
wth la!!
judy tan!!next time you come online early and don't go off so soon ok!
if not got test i don't let you copy!
haiya.now i'm at home doing nothing!
i know i should study.but.......
there's simply no motivation.
than tomorrow morning i will start to panic like siao!
and then when the paper starts,i will start to forget everything.
it always happen.
even now i can't remember how to do the addition and subtraction of standard form.
i'm so dead man!
and also the finding of unknown angles and length.
i'm like so so dead la!
thats it man!
the only thing i can look forward to passing is probably only my accounts.
OMG!!!i'm so damnit scared now la.
i don't want tomorrow to come.

something's hesitating me to do it.
and i don't know why.
it could be because of this r maybe because of that.
sigh.i just don't know la.

haha.wait till rachel gets the news!!!
i said hi and bye to ms lim.
haha.wait till she gets this.
she gonna be so freaked out.haha
and she'll be angry.haha
ok.now i don't know what to do.
i need motivation so that i can study.
or maybe i need someone to make me study?
i dn't know la.
woke up at 0930 today.
so early la.a
woke up and sat at sofa and stoned.
nothing much.
than my mother woke up.
mother:woah!!you so early today ah?!?!(looking shocked)
me:*just kept quiet*

watched the repeat of campus superstar :D
nothing to do and here i am.
i'm still hestitating.
sighs.

i chewed on something till i gave up.
it took me like 5 minutes please.
and now my mouth hurts =/
means i can't talk much.than i can just die la.
haha.
hmm.there are things and people i can't stnad.
people are those who like wanna stand up for their friend.
i just met one today afternoon.
and she so happen to be my friend's friend.
so can't stand her la.
one moment she says things without thinking.
the other moment she ACTS friendly.
wtf?
this type of people actually is on the earth!!
omg!i can't take it la.(it's not refering to anyone in the clique or those i know.)
can't stand it la.
why must she be like that?
and she likes to attract attention la.
so wtf can?!?!

things i can't stand is when people act like a leader when she is not.
and this is a few people in particular.(not in the clique again)
they just can't keep their comments to themselves.
and they will shout at others.
and also this one.she shouts at teachers.
ok.not teachers.but only mdm lim.
of all teachers she only shouts at mdm lim.and this one is a particular person.
i wish she can just fucking disappear la.and one thing
MDM LIM IS NO LONGER MY BEST FREND!
so ya.


and there's this someone.
she acts like what she doing is for the class.
but i'a actually that she wants things her way.
and she only does it infront of teachers la.
grr!!!and this few are those people from 3P!!!
like where the hell did i do anything wrong to go into a class full of this type of people.
maybe it's the not whole class.it's just the few particular fucking idiots.
the don't even deserve to be alive please.
omg!!!why?!?!why put me in a class like that!?!?
or rather.why did they come into a class like that?grr!!!
one after one!!!
now my mother doesn't believe me that
she chooses to believe my cousin than me.
like wtf la!!!!

her room is so so much more messier than mine.
but instead,she choose to believe her than me!!!
why??am i even her daughter?
i sometimes suspect la.
she choose to believe others than me!!!!
i really don't get it la.
if i'm being wronged by people than of course i will get angry and shout at the person right?
no matter who.
i won't let people accused and than keep quiet la.
that's like so no use please.
and this cousin is like.whenever she has nothing on the remember us la. what kind of a people is she?
like that also she prefer her than me la.
like everything is my fault.
WTF??
what if in the end is that she cannot find in her room.not that i never return?
and and.what if in the end she found that it's actually in her room?
is she gonna say sorry to me?
i doubt she will man!!
so even if it's my fault i will not say sorry too.
and i'm not gonna go out whenever she is going.
so if she's around anywhere,i'm not there.
WTF la?!?!
what kind of a mother is she?
and i remember clearly that i returned it to her.
although i've got stm.but still.
i remembered clearly that i returned it to her.
and now my mother blames me for everything.
including shouting at her!!!!!!
and i'm never gonna say sorry even if it's gonna be my fault.even if it takes my life!!
I WILL NOT!!!!
and i'm serious about it.
even if my mother decieds to severe(?) ties with me,i don't care.
i still won't say sorry!!!
over my dead body man!!!
fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!


sorry about the above people.
it's really just all that i thought la.
and ya.i mean who will have a mother who doesn't believe her child?
oh wells.i better stop now.or i'll start with those words again.
bye and takecare people.

i still can't get over it.
ignatius actually got FIRST!
one word for them:GOOD!
damn power la.
for so many years they never get first(?)
than all of a sudden,they gave everyone a shock by being first in EVERY hse prac and now this.
omg.they are just so damn good.
sigh.

and today, my mother helped my sister cut hair.haha.
and now my sis hair is like a disaster please.
it did looked quite nice right after the cut.
but than after she bathe and it got dry,it was oh-so-terrible.
and everytime she ties it up,there will be some hair here and there.
haha.
sister:tomorrow i don't wanna go school already la!
mother:why?
sister:i scared
mother:why?
sister:my hair!!!!!!!here drop there drop!!!
me:siao!because of that?
mother:ya lor.siao ah?!?1
sister:tsk*rolls eye*


wth la.she don't wanna go school because of her HAIR!!!
lucky my mother never say ok.
if not when i get home i'll get her to cut.
than i'll tell her i'm not happy and i don't wanna go school.
my sister is so qian da la.
i so feel like going to HOLLAND VILLAGE(:
i don't know why but i kinda like that place ALOT.
it's quite a nice place la.
hais...
today was ok.
went SGH AGAIN
for now till my grandfather comes out,SGH will be like my weekly routine.
i'll be going there every weekend.
after going there went queensway.
i like that place too.
got my trackpants.
and also a shirt.
than after that went zion road with my father for dinner.
after that went great world.
walked walked.
than came home.
helped my mother iron clothes.
haha.my sister just came into my room.
and gave me a stupid face.
haha.ok.back to the point.
i helped her iron clothes.
and here i am.
she didn't go with me get the wallet today la.
i don't care.
i'm so gonna get it.although it's doesn't look very nice.
but i just simply love it!
haha.i just tried to be angry with my sister but i so cannot make it la.
i almost wanted to laugh can.
lucky la.
and and.my sister does nothing but waste paper all day long.
and my mother claims that i waste paper too?wth la.
push the blame to me.
at least i don't do stupid things like her.
haiyo.
there's lessons tomorrow(duh)
and i kinda don't look forward to it.
ok.i need to go sleep soon.
it's only 21.21.so early.
but if i don't sleep than tomorrow morning is gonna be so =/
i really wanna go bangkok la.
i don't know why but i really wanna go there.
suddenly feel like doing all the weird things.
i hope ms phe doesn't go school tomorrow.
than haha.it'll be PLAYTIME!


things never happen before.nothing ever did.including talkong and going ____ __ _______ (: it's just illusions

yesterday's post was like i-don't-know-what la.
it's just all that i feel.
it's better to say it all out than keeping it in.
at least...
ok.i don't know what word to use.


went bugis just now.
nothing to do.
walk around.
went wallet shop!
omg.i saw this wallet so nice(:
and my mother refuses to buy it for me.
than i showed her black face all the way to SGH.
than after a while was ok.
she said gonna get it tomorrow?
i'm not sure la.
but i'm so gonna get it please.
i like it so much la.
although it doesn't look very nice.
but i don't know why i just like it so much (:
i helped my mother cooked just now.
haha.
and now,here i am.


it's just what i think.and it's not at all contradicting;

today was :D
had lessons till 11.
after that met people at locker.
than knew that ______ __ ______ ____ __.
haha.guess the blank people.
than went off to yck.
journey there was short.don't know why.
maybe was busy thinking thats why.

reached.
felt much better.
than fun splash started.
was ok.
kept walking here and there.
was pissed with someone today.
very pissed.
kept making use of people = my friends.
so irritating please.
it rained when it's coming to the end.
me and mel said that we would help out at next year's fun splash.
and guess what?!?!?CATHERINE GOT SECOND!!! YAYNESS!!!
everyone was happy i guess?
oh ya.in the morning before seeing ______
was quite in a good mood.
so i-don't-know-for-what-reason,i actually changed my crumple bag with carmen's bimbo bag.
what's gotten into me man.
i just because i was being nice.
she wanted to carry my crumpler mah.

after that went tiong.
wanted to alight and take a bus to tiong.
but no one alight with me la.
went tiong.
had dinner.
than went to take neos with carmen joyce fer and mel.
and everyone in the photo look so fair.haha.
than carmen had to go meet her parents.so went home lor.
my father came to fetch me home.
reached home.bathe.
ate abit. and here i am.

i'm so irritated by someone today la.
she totally spoil the day man!
shall not talk about it.
but really la.she's too much lor.
everytime she has her friends,she will go with them and leave my friends alone!
like wtf?
how can she do this?
fuck her!
and the worst thing is that people is scared of her black face.
one day.i will just tell her off and walk off after that without even letting her speak a word.
such a bloody asshole la.
grr!!
irritating piece of SHIT!
grr!!!can't stand her!!!
and and she will say something today and when tomorrow comes,
she will said that she never said that thing before.
and she will say things until it sounds like your fault when it's actually HER fault!
WTF LA!!!!
i can't stand it.
one day.i'm just gonna tell her everything i've wanted to tell her for the past years and walk off without letting her say a word.and i'm serious.
i don't care if i've got any back up or not.
even know i feel like calling her and give her a good scolding and than just hang up.can't stand it la.
she spoils everyday.
can't stand it.
weekend is s good thing for me now.
at least i don't have to see her bloody fucking face!!!
idiot! grrr!!!!!

grrr!!!!!!
something's irritating me!!
credit goes to my mother.
OMG!!!!!!!
but i guess it'll be better later on la.
i may regret it now.
but later if i think back it may be a good thing afterall.
so look on the bright side.
but now it's really really very difficult to not think of it.
grr!!!!!!!
i'm not gonna talk to my mother.


school was ok.
fnn we cooked this damn disgusting thing.
it's so sweet and so yucks!!
eeyeer.
omg.i wanna cry already la.
i can't get it off my mind.

nvm.i will get over it soon.(zi wo an wei)
haiya.i should be happy that she never scold me for using the com already.
but still!!!grr!!!!

tomorrow's fun splash!! yayness!! (:
can't wait la.

haiya.i've got no mood to blog la.
credit to my mother again.
because of that thing that i can't get it off my mind.
sighs..
takecare people.

today's damn fun :D
early in the morning.
went 7/11 with carmen to get breakfast.
than to schoolhaha.
it was so so funny at the foyer.
sc:please go up to your class now.recess than give presents.
everyone:*busy talking and laughing.cannot be bothered with the sc*
hahahahah.so funny.
than to locker.
alot of people was there?
than bell rang.and we were still at the locker.
than slowly walk up.
than wa maths.
haha.guess how much i got for test.
10/10!! :D
actually i got it back yesterday la.
than ya la.
than for double period chinese.
was a damn good chinese lesson la.
because got picnic again.haha
than fnn.mdm lim was ok today.
never nag and nag non stop.
than recess!!!!!!!
today zhenyi sat with us.
suppose to get her cookie yesterday but i forgot.
than ya la.went for cme.not very funny la today's lesson.
than was double bio.omg!! it's so so boring.
than dismissal!!!!
stayed back with zhenyi for her test.
than go home.
on the way home on bus 851 was so funny.haha.
this was the conversation.
stranger to fer:excuse me.here's a heart(made of the bus ticket) for you.happy valentine's day (:
fer:orh ok.....
stranger:what school are you all from?
fer:st theresa's convent.
stranger:huh??st nicholas?
me:ST THERESA'S CONVENT!
stranger:orh ok.i'm from hua zhong.
me:*ok.like who cares?*
me:*staring and looking at the candle ashley gave*
stranger:thats a very nice candle.check it out man!!
me and fer:*looks away*

ok.than i saw fer smiling.
and i ws like controlling my laughter la.
than i couldn't stand it anymore so i just started laughing.
omg!!such things actually do happen.haha
so funny please.
when both of us got down the bus,we laughed like nobody's business la.
so funny la.such people do exist.haha.
oh!and amanda heard mars as mass!!!wth la.haha

thank you fer for the mars.(AMANDA!NOT MASS HOR!)
thank you amanda for the M&Ms (:
thank you mel for the cookie!!!
thank you joyce for the chocolate(:
thank you sadistic friend for the hearts!!
thank you rachel for the flower(:
thank you ashley for the candle and heart!!!!!
thank you zhenyi for the card (:
thank you rachel ng for the chocolate!!
thank you elaine for the lollipop(:
ok.i can't remember if there's anymore la.
but anyway.
THANK YOU PEOPLE!!!

i may regret this one day.
but than again,it's best for now (:

i guess cookie is out this year for valentine.
no time to make.and all the things not bought yet.
just lollipops and chocolates??
i don't know la.
see hw's the economy first.haha.
so bored and tired la.
but i sure need to get zhenyi her cookie from somewhere.
so much things to do.so little time.
is there anywhere i can purchase time?
i forgot the homework we have la.
can't remember till peanuts called.
than this morning did acounts before went tiong.(yes,again)
got my calculator.
i have a feeling my old calculator will appear la.
haiya.
monday's gonna be busy man!!
i need to get lollipops,chocolates and cookie(only one)
haiya.the mood to blog is not here.
so shall just end here la.
takecare peoeple(:

the silence is unbearable;

today was so so =/
nothing is funny to me.
i mean those that can make me laugh till i can't stop.
morning.poa.i think it sucks please.eeyer.
than was chinese.
i think he so damn pervert la.
he only scolded those not pretty one.
than those pretty one he don't scold.can talk so nicely.
(actually i don't find them pretty la.it's coded by debra)
he kept screaming and shouting.
like siao siao like that.
than was pe.
nothing la.
than maths.
got test.
know how to do everything.
but i'm sure cannot get very high one la.
than recess.
ok lor.
nothing special la.
than was geog.
haiya.as usual la.
she also siao siao lor.
than english.
talk talk talk.
than went for assembly.
was totally moodless in the middle of it la.
the person said something funny.
than almost everyone was laughing?except me?
i don't think it's funny lor.
so ya la.
i just sat there looking away.
nothing interests me.
than ya lor.
end of school.

in the end,angielina came over to my house.
than after she ate than she left.
walked her down.
than walked back.
nothing interesting.
than haiya!don't know la!
cannot be bothered already la!

seeing you is the last thing i ever wanna do.
i'm in no mood to do things this few days.
those smiles and laughters are just for entertaining.
(in case i get complaine that i'm dao again)
nothing interests me now.
not even those real funny things.

today was simply very =/
had chinese.
ting xie to star the day.
than was ss.
presentation was kinda screwed up i think.
than english.
no comments.
then pe.run run as usual.never do anything la today.
than recess.nothing special.
with the usual.
than was pc.debra wass going crazy man!!
than double chem.no mood to play or laugh or anything.
than was looking at my shoes when ms phe caught me.=/
than had to go infront for some experiment thing.
after school,went to ask jannah if she want go locker.
and her answer was.see first.wth la.
go locker also must see first.
than she went.
after that was suppose to stay back with fer to company cherngshing.
but was super lazy and tired.
and also as usual;no mood.
so went home.
VERY SORRY CHERNGSHING!(:
went home lor.took 195.
and guess what!?!?
i saw chermaine chua on the bus!!!
ok.nothing special la.
seriously.nothing interests me now.
simply nothing.
spare me from seeing you for one day is enough.
just one day.and i can have peace and fun for one whole day.
i would even laugh at things that are un-funny like the last time me(:
but no,there's nothing i can do.


it kills me to see you;

http://www.iloveegg.com/winopen_ani/eggsong.htm

today is funny day.
had maths in the morning.
ms sim changed our places.
and guess who i seating with?!?!
JUDY TAN!!
chem also with her la!
than went for chinese!(:
my favourite!
doubl period :DD
so fun.
talked and played with debra.
than was fnn.
got test.
dies la.fail already.
than recess.
after recess was cme!!
omg!!it's the funniest cme i had ever la!!
so funny lor.ltt.
hahaha.
she was like telling us about manners and stuff.
and the way we should seat.
than she was like
ltt:some seat like that.some like this.and some with the legs over their head,.
class:hahaahahah!!
me:haahhhahahahahahah(all the way till end of lesson)

and when i was still laughing,she told us something funny again.
so laughing continuously la.
till end of lessons.
and peanut was like pulling me for bio at the end of cme.
than sat at usual place.
but that bloody bitch wants us to go to the front.wtf la.
the front?
like for what?
someone:go infront for what?we can see from here
ms lim:i know you can see from there.but i cannot see you from here.

wtf la!!like why she wanna see us?
and rachel is like so obsessed with her?
omg.can't stand her la.
she's so diao.

after that stayed back in school do the ss thing.
actually was rachel do i see.
but end up i do everything.
wth can.everything la.grr!!!
done already.but neede touch up.
so ask fer help me (:
today's hse prac for joseph,caroline and isbel.
thursday's for catherine,ignatius and marie (:
can't wait please.
suppose to go with mel to tiong on friday for lunch and walk walk.
but me no money so change to next nextfriday lor.
next friday is fun splash!!
going with fer and i don't know who else.
tomorrow's timetable sucks la.
chinese,ss,el,pe,recess,pc than double period chem =/
JUDY TAN again.
not that she's horrible or something la.
but it's like.maths seat with her.
than chen also seat with her.
but at least better than seating with some other people la.
h.i lost my calculator and key.
it's somewhere at home but i can't find it.
and my key.it has been missing for so long already.
it means that i need new set of keys (:
nvm.
if my mother doesn't want to make it for me
than i'll just go make it by myself.
hmm.ok already la.later my hand gets numb =/
bye people(:
takecare.

omg.
my fan is so kuku.
keeps giving out some funny noise.
haiz....
it means time to change new one (:
now everyone's out.
the whole hse is to me!
i can do anything i want.
yay!
now judy knows my chinese name.
and she's calling me whenever i see her =/
i don't like.
and peanuts laughed at my 'who knows' or a very long time.
and i don't know why.
we repeated the conversation over and over just to hear the 'who knows'
she's nuts man.
and elanie yeo's best friend is so lame.
haha.her best friend can't walk.
haha.ok.lame.
but it's funny la.


after school went munch with fer,cherngshing and dayang (:
at bm macs.
laughed till i cannot take it la.
so funny lor.
alhough it's something i've said before.
but i still thinks it's very funny :D
than slack for awhile.
sent dayang to bus stop.
than went take bus home.
homed.pretend to do homework.
my mother wants to go out.
and i don't want.
so i pretended to be doing homewrok.
now she's ot i hope she won't be home that early.
(:
ok.i'm getting bored.
shall stop here.
takecare people(:

today was ok la.
went to the hong bao riber thing?
ya.quite boring la.
except that they got loads of thing to eat?
haha.

hmm.gwen is so guai.
she did eight pages of research for fnn.
so guai la.
i only did like one/two pages for each research?
haha.
and she claims that mdm lim loves me?
ok.what nonsense la.
please.i think she loves gwen more.haah.
oh!guess what!?
colour for class tee gonna be either white and gold/white and pink la.
if it's pink than i'm not gonna wear it man!
no!in the first pleace i wouldn't even order it.
pink sucks man!but than again.depends on what shade of pink.
i'll only wear it if i'm happy with the shade of pink.
hmm.i still prefer the 2baye'05 class tee.
like of course la.


oh no!
my hands gonna go numb later on.
i realise that i can't type for long.
it'll really go very numb.
and i can't sleep.
i need a rest.
hahaha.
madness.

oh!many people in my class are getting flu and cough.
thanx to me.
cause all those who're sick are those who seat next to me during classes.
people like debra.she very suay.next to me for chinese and POA
than judy.and that very day when i got sick was when we had chem.
than alot la.
cause people drink debra's water which i drank on monday!also that day when i got sick.
haha.so many people in the class are rubbing their noses and coughing.
HAHAHAHAHAAHAH.omg.i feel mean.
omg!there's ss tomorrow.
and than it's soon gonna be wednesday.
than have to present the stupid thing la.
haiyer.
so tsk la.
nv,.i shall just end here before my hands get numb =/
bye people.
and takecare (:

i'm not happy i'm not sad.
it's just a confused and mixed up feeling la.

I NEED FOOD!!!
haven't had my dinner la.
and i'm all alone at home!! :D
i love this man!!
i'm a semi-happy kid now.
happy cause my mother is not at home!
but besides that,there nothing for me to feel happy about.
seriously.nothing interest me now.
nothing.NOT A SINGLE THING.
thas a damn sad thing.
have been feeling low these few days during lesson time.
but sometimes when peanut crake a not bearable joke,i would just laugh.
but soon after,i will be back to the not happy me.
it's not not happy.it's just moodless.not happy.not sad.
not angry.
not bored.
simply nothing.
sigh.
i don't like this feeling.
i want to be back to the last time me.
but i don't think i can.
it's gonna take time.
and the worst is.
i don't know why i'm feeling like that.
well.you will never klnow what's happening to you or what's going on in you.
thats sdo sad please.
sigh.

the cut on my hand you never know.thanks to the 100 plus bottle (:

ain't in a mood to do anything today.
in the morning was ok.
than around 3+ like that mood just dropped.
like it fell from 1000 stories down like that.
well.sigh.
nothing seems to interest me now.
nothing can be back to the same.
i need the time machine!
to go back to the old times.
when we didn't knew anything.
when we were all innocent (:
but everyone knows.it's impossible to go back to the past.
nothing would be the same again.
those fun that we had.
no more.
nothings gonna be the same again.never.

just came back from movie with angel (:
i not stupid too.
it's a nice show.
after that went for dinner.
than here i am (:
had CHINESE early in the morning :D
was nice(:
after was ss.
oh man.a disaster la.
got caught for talking and sleeping =/
have to do some powerpoint thing on the reasons on merger and seperation of malaysia and singpore?
something like that la.
wth lor.
others also talked and slept.
not fair la.
pe was fun.
and i finally got to pinch shumei!
recess.as usual la.
oh!carmen never come school today!!
ok.out of point.
than was pc.boring la.
than chem.had test.
and i think i'll flunk it?
haha.and ms phe said if fail will have extra lessons one to one =/
i don't want la.
haiya.
tomorrow's gonna be a short day.
maths in the morning.
than poa than ss and bio.
than would be recess.than fnn.
than end of school!!!