How do you do it?

Is there a need to compare everything? Why can't people just control the tone of their voice? Will kicking up a big fuss really solve anything? Do you even think about your own actions before you talk about others? Why do people like to put themselves above everyone else? Does it kill to just put yourself down? Why are people so contradicting? Why are people so two-faced? How can you talk about someone, and the next moment, you talk to the person in question like as if you are so close? How can you do the things that you are doing, and still think that you are above everyone else?

Everyday, I try to be the bigger and better person than I was. But there are just sometimes, things, and people who gets on your nerves, no matter how good you try to be.

This week is terrible.

Labour Day Weekend

Started my long weekend with an interview on Friday! But I got the permission to not return back to office after work, so.. weekend start earlier for me, yay! But because it was a normal working day, got home quite early to laze around, watch drama! 

Saturday started with morning breakfast with the folks, followed by attending a funeral ): So heart-wrenching, I cannot ): 

Went home to shower, then headed off to my auntie's shop for the shop's 30th Anniversary. 

Hahahahah! Dk why only 30th got celebrations, but since invited then ok.. Hahahah! My uncle was mentioning next time put MJ table there then can start immediately, but cannot, police will catch hahahahaha. Then cousin said "This one not my area, if something happen, I cannot do anything hor" HAHAHAH! 

Hoped over to my auntie's house from the shop! And had a very bitchy conversation. HAHAHAH!  

Sunday was spent out of home. Shopping with mother and sis, before going for our favourite ytf for supper! We spent an hour in Sephora looking at make up omg but all I bought was a lip crayon, because they didn't carry NYX face powder at the GCW store. 

Yesterday was just.. tired. Very tired. Slept at 3am and woke up at 9.30am. CAN DIE. But no matter what, I couldn't go back to sleep. So I watched shows on my phone, until noon. 

THIS MORNING FELT LIKE DEATH BECAUSE I ONLY SLEPT AT 1AM LAST NIGHT! D:

Lucky it's only 4-days work week! Mum's bday tmr, dinner on Thur with my bestf! ^^ 

Dilemma

To go to Beijing only, or to make a trip down to Shanghai as well?
I could cover Shanghai in 3 days, which means I can arrive in Shanghai and take a train down to Beijing and leave from Beijing back to Singapore. I just checked the tickets for this route and it's only SGD506. But then I have to factor in train tickets from Shanghai to Beijing, and accommodation in Shanghai. Which is quite reasonable. But main reason would be to visit Shanghai Disneyland hahahhaha. Don't know if it's a good idea cause I'm pretty sure it'd be packed with.. local Chinese.

Hmmm, decisions.

7 more hours till end of 14 Apr

Today has got to be the worst day ever in 2016.

I've been having troubles sleeping for the past 2 nights. First night my sis kept moving ard and it was almost impossible for me to sleep. Yesterday was worse. She kept clearing her nose in the loudest way possible. Everytime I'm so close to falling asleep, she does it. THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. Fml.

2 nights of not enough sleep, and I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, to make things worse. What could be worse right? Yupp, thought things will only get better but no. More things came up at work, my sneakers are giving me blister. Yupppppp o.o

Thinking of cancelling my dinner plans later but I feel bad doing it. So I'm either heading straight home after dinner, or I could catch a movie. But we'll see. Ice cream might make me feel better. But I don't even wanna interact with any human being right now, not even my closest friend or anything. I have this I cannot be bothered feel now. I couldn't even maintain a straight face just now.
Part of me is using all the strength I have inside me to hold me back from confronting my sis. Why the fuck does she not want to sleep at night for fuck's sake. So late do what? Rob bank ah? -.- Just sleep la.

//

Something to inject a little sunshine in my very dark day, I started on DOTS, and I could understand why everyone is swooning over Song Joong Ki. Not bad, I must say. Finally a decent female lead. Actually all decent la. Except for one that I really don't like (Hint: Heirs, Pinocchio *shifty eyes*) HHAHAHAHA PRETTY OBVIOUS.

Heading for dinner in awhile and I'm still feeling full from lunch. But of course, I finished lunch only at 3pm, how to be hungry by 5?

-.-

08/04/16

We're into the 4th month of the year!! *\o/*

Sometimes it feels like time really flies. Other times, you just want time to fly.

Here's what I've been up to! (Whatever that comes to my mind)

1. Caught Zootopia with Fer on Tue!
2. Nic the fox is sucha gentleman, even better than real life guys these days.
3. One loud guy in the cinema, 1.2 the time laughing at him instead
4. Caught Batman vs Superman last week
5. Had my first box of salted popcorns
6. The first popcorn had me wishing that it was a mix of sweet and salty
7. Then I wished I was just unlucky that one salted one mixed in and I was just unlucky
8. Sorry, life is not always rainbows and butterflies, WHOLE BOX WAS SALTED >:
9. Front part was boring and I needed to talk so badly
10. That was my first "superhero" movie
11. Sick of finding for jobs already
12. FINALLY FRIDAY!
13. My hands are itching to buy a Kenzo watch
14. But I cannot decide if I need it
15. HUNGRY AF RIGHT NOW
16. Cannot wait for lunch
17. Maybe I should watch Cheese in the Trap now
18. Cannot wait to watch DOTS to feeeeel the hype
19. This was actually drafted on Wed, but only finished today.
20. (:

13 March 2016 // Grad Ceremony

Wanted to continue on CNY post but.. NVM. HAHAHA. I figured this is more recent and.. more things to put up heheh!

//

I OFFICIALLY GRADUATED ON 13 MARCH 2016!! :D

Started off the day by... rolling ard at home. I'm not kidding hahahah. Left only at ard 12 plus to meet my bestfriend for dinner! ^^ I Uber-ed there because got IT Show discount code hahhaahahha and ended up being late cause the guy cannot find his way to my home! /:

But nvm. Had lunch and some coffee otherwise I don't think I can last till 9pm hahhahahah. But really I think we met too early cause we had nothing to do after that hahahahahahah.

We look sooooo awkward omg! 

With mummy!! 

The bouquet, tbh, became a burden after awhile hahahahaha. But you know.. People have, I also want hahahahahahah. Bad habit!!

IM + KOL Lecturer! Probably the only friendly lecturer! 

Lucky my hair very on point on that day hehehe! 

My feet was hurting by dinner and I was sooo afraid it would slip off my feet hahahahah but surprisingly, I couldn't feel anything when I was on stage hahahahahha! 

Aww, Shep took a photo of me on stage. Which then made me feel bad cause when he was on stage, I was sitting there restlessly, feeling nervous and all -.- Until I totally forgot abt everything hahahah.

One more with my bestfriend! ^^ 

2 years before this picture, on one random day when we were having tea, we were just talking and totally have no idea that we enrolled into the same school until we say we going to start school in the same month. Hahahah! I think it went something like...

S: I starting school in Sept leh! 

G: Ehh, me also!! Where you studying at?

S: Kaplan 

G: Me tooooo Murdoch?

S: Yahhh

G: COPY. 

HAHAHAHAHAHHA! Then after many many many months of complaining abt assignments and exams, lecturers and teammates/classmates (mostly me complaining), HERE WE AREEEE! (': 

Last one with my mummy!!!! :D Or more like my pillar! Hahahah! 

It seems like I'm quite friendless in uni hor.... Hahahah! I have friends ok! Just that they are not graduating yet ): So, I look like I have no friends hahahahha! Lucky Shep same session. Otherwise really is no friend at all. HAHAHAHAH!! 

I'm soooo glad I completed my degree! I had to take sup paper for my very first unit in uni, and it was DEMORALIZING AS SHIT. I was soooo close to quitting school. Then final term, so close to dropping one unit because 3 was really too much to handle that I even doubt myself, and thought I should have listened to my friends to take 2 units instead of 3. 

BUT I DID IT, YAY! 

Random What Not

Doing what I hate doing the most now - Backing up my phone.
I honestly hate to sync my phone to backup all my files but I know if I don't do it, I'd regret big time. I need to buy an external harddisk but I've been procrastinating since.... 4 IT shows ago? THAT'S LIKE A YEAR?! Hahaha yeahh. I'm thinking of buying multiple USB instead. Like 1 USB for 1 category kinda thing. But I'd probably lose all the USB. Hahaahah and forget which USB contain what files hhahahahah wtf.

Thought I should update this space a bit, since I have all the privacy I need right now. Hahaahah I'm suppose to be doing some workout but... maybe later. Maybe.

Meanwhile, I'm gonna import' em photos and try to clear back logs. Not like anyone reads them anyway but it's FMI when I'm.. older? Hahaahaha!

Feels like...

DEATH.

I am sooooooo tired like physically. 

And so sick of looking for jobs. No one has called me back so far. It's not like as if my resume is so bad. I have at least 3 years of experience. And I'm not evening applying for managerial position -.- 

Just hoping that the 3 hotels will call me back and at least give me a chance to go for an interview. 

// 

Adults stuff aside. Hahahah! I think there's something wrong with me like, I need to see the doctor kind of something wrong. Have been feeling short sharp pain in my eyes. But sometimes they itch like mad and I start tearing. Another thing is. I've been have giddy spells and feeling nauseous. Ytd it was soooo bad. Felt giddy before dinner and I thought it was hunger but after dinner was no better. Then as I was trying to fall asleep, has this stomach pain. It was so painful it made me feel giddy again. And few days ago I had this terrible pull, also in my stomach then made me giddy and nauseous as well. AM I DYING? Hahahah I kid. But serious. If this goes on, I better visit the doctor ): 

//

Caught How To Be Single last night! Not baddddd. Tbh it got a little boring at some time. Or maybe it's not my type of shows. I'm the.. sci-fi/fantasy/action kind. Hahhahaha!  

Life of a part time Uni Student

Really is nothing much. HAHAHAHAHAH!

Everyday just revolves around home - work - school - home. Then repeat for x number of days, depending on which day got school. Hahahah.

1st Term - Sept 2014
Worried and excited because I'm finally meeting new people and worried cause.. I'm super anti-social one what if no one wants to be friends with me hahahahhaha. But all was good. Except the lecturer for one of the modules. She made things sound so difficult to the extend that I wanted to quit school immediately. I was sooooo troubled after her class I can never forget hahahhahahaha. But slowly slowly the momentum picked up and everything was good. UNTIL I GET THE RESULTS FOR EXAM AND I NEEDED TO TAKE SUP PAPER FOR ONE MODULE FML. And that was when I wanted to quit school again cause 1st term only already like this hahahahhaha. But lucky never quit la of course~~ Look where am I now~~

2nd Term - Jan 2015
Wasn't as bad as I expected. 2 modules, but I only managed to enroll into the same class as Shan for 1 module. And I had a Saturday morning class. But when I knew I was in the same class as Hanna for law class.. I was looking forward to Saturday mornings sia hahahahah!! Nothing much this term because only 1 group assignment.

First day of 2nd term!! 

Made to do stupid things like this.. and for the entire term -.- 

One of the days we reunited with Fifee!! 

Another random day after group assignment discussion. 

We look happy but really, we were burning with hatred inside hahahaaahah. 

This was end of all group presentations for the term!! 

*miss my hair colour*

Random photo of 3 of us cause this must be one Saturday after class where I met them for movie dinner and went out till late hahahahhaaha! 

Another random day! 

When we crashed Adrian's law class before exam! 

3rd Term - May 2015
SAME CLASS AS SO MANY PEOPLE I KNOW! Happy like bird. But it's also where things go down. Not my results but more like relations with people. Don't know what happened in between also. But maybe I just go a bit sick and tired of how some people are behaving, and how they treat other people. Oh wells. All is good now. What is meant to be, will be. Maybe we were only meant to be classmates, not even friends. BUT NVM, ALL IS GOOD!! I was looking forward to classes every week because I was in the same class as Hanna and she makes class more tolerable. Really.

FINAL TERM - SEPT 2015
Final term so just chiong and take 3 modules. Although a lot of people advise me not to. Because I was also working at the same time. But no, time is not on my side. I went ahead to take 3 modules. Mid term I really wanted to just cry and die hahahaha. The stress really no joke. And because of certain issues at work + people in school. Actually it wasn't so much of the workload. It was more of how people were behaving that I couldn't take it. There was nothing to look forward to at all. Class was more than boring. Never dreaded school sooooo much before. And I really, really hated almost everyone that I had to interact with. And because school days was only Tue/Wed before this term, so by Thursday, normally I'm burnt out already. I just wanted time to fly, people to leave me alone. I just wanted to go class and go home. But nooooo. Only 3 hours in school, people cannot leave me alone. They just had to step on my tail and make life miserable for me. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Ok kua zhang max but really. I always hated Thursdays! But okkk, I bite on and I'm done! Hahahah!!

So... my 16 months in Murdoch was alright. Except for the last 4 months (which I really really hated). Hhahahahaha! I thought going into the working world, I have seen it all. But no. There are so much more that I have not seen yet. How selfish people can be. How irresponsible people can get. And meeting people who are even more narrow minded than I am. REALLYY. I thought I was bad enough. But apparently there are people worst than me. But it's ok. There are more to expect in the working world. I have not seen it all. So I thank the people I have crossed path with in the 16 months, for giving me life lessons on how people can be.

Balancing work and studies wiseeee. I think it's ok. Hahahaha but mainly because I have nothing much to do at work anyway. Boss even gave me time to do my assignments, and study for exam in office. Maybe that was why I found it manageable. Hahahahah! At first I hated exam period. But I slowly grown to like it because that means.. LONG LEAVES! Hahahahahah! I don't mind studying but half the time I'm just sitting there, getting worried over not being able to finish studying -.- And not being able to remember anything hahahahah wtf.

Now that school's out, NO MORE LONG LEAVES TO LOOK FORWARD TO. Hahahahah. Those long leaves were like... confirm have to take one hahahahahah. But now no more reasons already hahahahah. I'm glad to be done with school because I don't have to face people Idw to face anymore.

NEXT UP WILL BE GRADUATION CEREMONY BEFORE I CLOSE THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE. So excited but so worried I'll fall on stage also HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF.

GRADUATE LO!!!!!!!!

I AM FINALLY GONNA GRDUATE OMG!!!

Look at my glorious results hehehhe! 

Not so nice because I had to take 1 sup paper for the very first module I took in Uni but all's good because I AM GRADUATING HAHAHAHAHA! After 16 painful months. 

I was sooooo worried throughout the whole week! I actually expected myself to get a good grade for HR Econs and I'm glad it did meet my expectations because I walked out of class feeling like a scholar HAHAHAHHAHHAHAAHAH WTF. But no seriously. Out of so many papers I took, this is the one I felt the most confident one! 

Anyway, I'm so thankful for all the support I've gotten from my family and supportive friends! <3 nbsp="" p="">

At times when I say I cannot handle anymore, I have people helping me. And these are people who are not even taking the course. Eg - Fer! She helped me soooooo much omg. 

I shall do a recap of uni life and what I went through. But for now, I'm just gonna bask in happiness that I AM GONNA GRADUATE! HEHEHE! 

// Actually... I'm not as stupid as I thought leh hahah though only credit but I have like 5 Credits out of 9 units lehhhhh. Hahaahahahah! 

Last of 2015

//This post has been rotting in the drafts section since forever!!! - Moving into the 3rd week of 2016 and I'm still trying to do up my post on 2015 hahahahahahaha. 

I cannot remember what was the last post from 2015 about so... I'm gonna be very 随性 and just update whatever that comes to my mind.

First up, FER AND JOYCE BDAY CELEBRATIONS!

Just realised this is the only pic I have cause I never save the group pic hahahahhaha wtf. 

THEN FER INTRO ME TO WATCH THIS DRAMA AND I'M HOOKED! 

It was so ridiculous in the beginning but it's starting to get very sweet hehehehhe! 

Christmas Wonderland with the family!! 

Hi Sis! Wahhh I look very hiao here leh what's with the angle HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

And I look different also /:

Aunty photobombed us ): 

HELLO KITTY RUN!! 

The only mark where no one was there hahahhahha! 

Ohhh something funny! We wasn't expecting the t shirt to be in this shade of pink and both of us was like.. this will be the first and last time we're seen in baby pink!! HAHAHAH! 

Next day was my uncle's wedding lunch reception! 

And I finally applied make-up after very long. I've been going bare faced for veryyyy long already hahhahahhhaha! 

Family photo after v long. 

Vietnam Drip Coffee! 

*which btw took forever* 

All ma closer cousins!

AND THIS CHRISTMAS GIFT FROM MY SISTER HEHEHEH! 

Which I have yet to wear them cause of the weather hahahahha! 

Then we had our annual x'mas exchange at Fer's place and her mum baked us a cake! ^^

Mel and I were early so Fer prepared some food for us.  

Teppanyaki style cause Fer was cooking just right in front of us hhahahahahah and sorry I only have the snapchat version of this pic hahahahhah! 

All our gifts (:

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On 31 Dec, I had lunch with my 2 other favourite people! 

This is an old pic cause.. I LAZY TO BACKUP FROM MY PHONE! ):

And I guess this marks the end of my 2015 cause I spent the rest of 31 Dec at home doing nothing, followed by watching Taiwan's countdown on tv! Hahaahahah!! I wanted to avoid the crowd at all cost. Initial plan was to go Fer's place to nua cause... nothing to do mah but ended up staying home hahahhah! Which was good because I started 2016 by going to JB!