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I'm so happy I have this space to rant. This matter has been on my mind since.. this morning. Not very long, but it's definitely affecting me more than it should. 

TBH, I should be used to it by now. But that's exactly why I'm raging/feeling disappointed over it. It's not even a big matter, but it has been weighing me down since I saw it. This is overdue because that message was sent a while back. But I have cultivated the bad habit of not reading messages/whatsapp if it's not important. 

So today morning, I opened a whatsapp because I needed to check on something and chanced upon a reply from last week. Which means if I had opened it last week, I wouldn't be feeling this way now. (Serve me right for not reading replies) Anyway, this certain reply, to me it's replied in such a way that I am disturbing that person's peace/am being annoying. THING IS, I wasn't even the one who initiated the chat. And given how well I know this person, I can totally imagine the tone used in my mind, which makes me feel worst. I normally laugh it off and brush it aside cause we used to talk quite frequently. But we haven't talked in a few months, shouldn't you be nicer? 

Like I said, I should be used to it. Which makes matter worst because, why should I even be used to being treated this way? Not everything works both ways. Me being nice and treating someone as a good friend, doesn't mean the other party will treat me the same way. I have expectations because we have been friends for so long. Don't tell me you dk how fucking sensitive I can be? 

Or maybe you just care about yourself only. I should have known because this is how you have been all along. I was ok with it all along maybe because it hasn't reached my limit yet. 

Each time I get over it, I tell myself I have better things to be happy about. Like my successful ballot for the latest NMD launch. & that I do have other friends who will willingly and happily listen to me rage and kpkb. Which is why I shouldn't even be so affected. 

But then I think again on all the efforts I have put into this friendship. 

I know I would regret this post one day, because I'm pretty sure it's my moodswing that's making me feel this way. But for now, and the past week in fact, this, is how I have been feeling. 

Helplessness

Following the best weekend I've had 2 weeks ago, the latest one was just.. bad and traumatizing.

Mel says it's a trauma, which I agree.

I've never felt this way until recent months. It's way off my limits. I've been super patient but it's starting to get on my nerves.
Yet, no one else can do anything to help me. Not even my mum or sis because it's totally out of their control.
In fact, I've never felt this helpless before.
Excuses don't work because, well, they are excuses. I need to find legit reasons. Like as if the reason I have now is not good enough.

Well, probably not good enough to escape.

Mayday Just Rock It 2016

After watching so so so many videos on Youtube and IG, IT WAS FINALLY MY TURN!
I already know what to expect based on my previous experience. But I was still going through hashtags on IG, to watch some videos of Friday's concert. IT WAS SO GOOD. I was beyond excited! My heart was already bursting with excitement on Friday night. I cannot remember how many times I told Fer that I was excited. Hahahhahah.

We reached Stadium at ard 7.45pm! So there was not much time to be impatient hahahahah. 3/4 the time spent waiting was Fer listening to me repeating "I'M SO EXCITED!"

I don''t have much pictures. I don't have the habit of taking photos because my photography skills is near to non-existence, I only take a few for memories' sake!  

Our $202 view! *.*

When the curtain dropped, IT FELT LIKE A DREAM HAHAHAHAH. Sibei xiao drama. But reallyyy, after soooooo long, and watching so many videos, I'm finally watching them live!! Then I asked Fer sooooo many times if this was real hahahahahah!!!! 

The talking was so... full of rubbish hahahahhaha!!! Super funny, maybe they can be comedians after they retired hor? 

It was so so soooooooo amazing!! 

Favourite moment!!! Though the confetti only reached the VIP area hahahahah. 

Final bow. 

They are super known for having many encores hahahahahah, and Saturday was no different! It was so good they sang for sooooo long! It was more than what I'd expected! The previous time, they ended at ard 11pm. But this time round, we ended close to 12mn! It was soooooo good, I don't even have post concert depression! ^^

I think throughout the whole Saturday, my most repeated phrases are "I'M SO EXCITED" & "AM I DREAMING" 

I am so closed to trying to buy the tickets for KL show! But then I thought I shouldn't be so bad. Give KL ppl the chance to watch it too, don't snatch with them! Hahahah! But my greatest dream will be to catch them live in Taiwan! ^^ Or HK, since they have so many shows in HK every year! /:

P.S // My ear still has the ringing sound up till now. I Googled abt it and it's recommended to see doctor if it's still ard after 24hrs? Wahh I scared. 

4th

FEELING DEAD AS USUAL!!

The week feels exceptionally loooooong because I'm looking forward to Saturday sooo much! ^^

It's down to 2 more days heheh! *\o/*
Still looking for tickets for tmr's night show! But no one's selling them! ):
But then again, with that amount, I can buy a pair of sneakers lehh hehehhe!

SO TEMPTED TO GET A PAIR OF SILVER SUPERGA!