Rice

Must be mad enough to eat rice during lunch. SO SLEEPY NOW.
I didn't even had more than a quarter bowl of it. REGRETZ.

Dreadful

And we have arrived at September again. Can't help but dread it. 

Oh wells. Trying my best to look on the positive side! 

Went Pokemon hunting yesterday at ECP! There really is nothing much! /: I caught all those that I already have. Pikachu and Charmander sightings popped up on my phone but they didn't appear ): Xiao sad. HAHAHAHA. Spent a total of 5hours at ECP, with 2 hours in between talking rubbish at MCD, having cake and coffee. Which of course I regretted big time. I went home feeling exhausted and ready for a good night's sleep. But of course, coffee wouldn't let me. I was so tired physically, my eyes couldn't open to save my life. But my mind was wideeee awake, I was even singing in my mind hahahahhahhahha!!! That feeling is sooo pekcek that my will to sleep gave in and I woke up at 6am. 

Scrolled through social media, played games and finished all the lives. BEFORE I FINALLY DECIDED TO WATCH THE LAST EPISODE OF DOCTORS. Such a happy ending omg (': 

//

SO TEMPTED TO BUY THINGS OFF TAOBAO. But the hit/miss part is making me hesitate soooo much. I bought once from taobao and.... dresses were too short. Jeans was too long. HAHAHAHAH. Even folding the jeans also no use!! I CANNOT MAKE UP MY MIND NOW. 

...

I'm so happy I have this space to rant. This matter has been on my mind since.. this morning. Not very long, but it's definitely affecting me more than it should. 

TBH, I should be used to it by now. But that's exactly why I'm raging/feeling disappointed over it. It's not even a big matter, but it has been weighing me down since I saw it. This is overdue because that message was sent a while back. But I have cultivated the bad habit of not reading messages/whatsapp if it's not important. 

So today morning, I opened a whatsapp because I needed to check on something and chanced upon a reply from last week. Which means if I had opened it last week, I wouldn't be feeling this way now. (Serve me right for not reading replies) Anyway, this certain reply, to me it's replied in such a way that I am disturbing that person's peace/am being annoying. THING IS, I wasn't even the one who initiated the chat. And given how well I know this person, I can totally imagine the tone used in my mind, which makes me feel worst. I normally laugh it off and brush it aside cause we used to talk quite frequently. But we haven't talked in a few months, shouldn't you be nicer? 

Like I said, I should be used to it. Which makes matter worst because, why should I even be used to being treated this way? Not everything works both ways. Me being nice and treating someone as a good friend, doesn't mean the other party will treat me the same way. I have expectations because we have been friends for so long. Don't tell me you dk how fucking sensitive I can be? 

Or maybe you just care about yourself only. I should have known because this is how you have been all along. I was ok with it all along maybe because it hasn't reached my limit yet. 

Each time I get over it, I tell myself I have better things to be happy about. Like my successful ballot for the latest NMD launch. & that I do have other friends who will willingly and happily listen to me rage and kpkb. Which is why I shouldn't even be so affected. 

But then I think again on all the efforts I have put into this friendship. 

I know I would regret this post one day, because I'm pretty sure it's my moodswing that's making me feel this way. But for now, and the past week in fact, this, is how I have been feeling. 

Helplessness

Following the best weekend I've had 2 weeks ago, the latest one was just.. bad and traumatizing.

Mel says it's a trauma, which I agree.

I've never felt this way until recent months. It's way off my limits. I've been super patient but it's starting to get on my nerves.
Yet, no one else can do anything to help me. Not even my mum or sis because it's totally out of their control.
In fact, I've never felt this helpless before.
Excuses don't work because, well, they are excuses. I need to find legit reasons. Like as if the reason I have now is not good enough.

Well, probably not good enough to escape.

Mayday Just Rock It 2016

After watching so so so many videos on Youtube and IG, IT WAS FINALLY MY TURN!
I already know what to expect based on my previous experience. But I was still going through hashtags on IG, to watch some videos of Friday's concert. IT WAS SO GOOD. I was beyond excited! My heart was already bursting with excitement on Friday night. I cannot remember how many times I told Fer that I was excited. Hahahhahah.

We reached Stadium at ard 7.45pm! So there was not much time to be impatient hahahahah. 3/4 the time spent waiting was Fer listening to me repeating "I'M SO EXCITED!"

I don''t have much pictures. I don't have the habit of taking photos because my photography skills is near to non-existence, I only take a few for memories' sake!  

Our $202 view! *.*

When the curtain dropped, IT FELT LIKE A DREAM HAHAHAHAH. Sibei xiao drama. But reallyyy, after soooooo long, and watching so many videos, I'm finally watching them live!! Then I asked Fer sooooo many times if this was real hahahahahah!!!! 

The talking was so... full of rubbish hahahahhaha!!! Super funny, maybe they can be comedians after they retired hor? 

It was so so soooooooo amazing!! 

Favourite moment!!! Though the confetti only reached the VIP area hahahahah. 

Final bow. 

They are super known for having many encores hahahahahah, and Saturday was no different! It was so good they sang for sooooo long! It was more than what I'd expected! The previous time, they ended at ard 11pm. But this time round, we ended close to 12mn! It was soooooo good, I don't even have post concert depression! ^^

I think throughout the whole Saturday, my most repeated phrases are "I'M SO EXCITED" & "AM I DREAMING" 

I am so closed to trying to buy the tickets for KL show! But then I thought I shouldn't be so bad. Give KL ppl the chance to watch it too, don't snatch with them! Hahahah! But my greatest dream will be to catch them live in Taiwan! ^^ Or HK, since they have so many shows in HK every year! /:

P.S // My ear still has the ringing sound up till now. I Googled abt it and it's recommended to see doctor if it's still ard after 24hrs? Wahh I scared. 

4th

FEELING DEAD AS USUAL!!

The week feels exceptionally loooooong because I'm looking forward to Saturday sooo much! ^^

It's down to 2 more days heheh! *\o/*
Still looking for tickets for tmr's night show! But no one's selling them! ):
But then again, with that amount, I can buy a pair of sneakers lehh hehehhe!

SO TEMPTED TO GET A PAIR OF SILVER SUPERGA!

Mayday 9th Album - 自傳

Finally laid my hands on the album! 

Story goes.. 

- Started stalking Rock Records FB since forever

- Finally announced same release date as Taiwan - 21 July 

- Rock Records have got no idea what time shops will receive stock

- Called CD Rama to leave number cause they also had no idea 

- Had to run errands at Bras Basah, so I decided to peek, but nope, not stocked yet

- Continue with errands, ending at Chinatown 

- Internal struggle if I should go back BB or head home 

- Went home, 2 minutes after I alighted from bus, BB call

- #badluckger #xiaosuay #ahsuay 

- Went home to freshen up and left for BB

- POPULAR CLOSES AT 7, I REACHED AT 7.10 T.T 

BUT NVM. All aside, I got the album! ^^ 

Here comes part 2.

- Reserved both versions cause y'know, 2nd last album

- Went down, collect, pay, and go 

- Realised that only difference was pre-order version comes with gift 

- OK CAN -.- 

- Refund the normal version paiseh-ly

END OF MY ADVENTURE, :'D 

25 July - 3 days after I have the songs in my phone. I already have some favourites! 

The lyrics are a hit! 

阿信 will always be my favourite lyricist! 

Here are some of them:

如果我們不曾相遇

-

那一天  那一刻  那個場景  你出現在我生命

~

如果我們從不曾相識  不存在這首歌曲

好好 (想把你寫成一首歌)

-

好好假裝我  已經把你忘掉

後來的我們

-

在某處  另一個你  留下了

在那裡  另一個我  微笑著

另一個我們  還深愛著

代替我們永恆著

如果能這麼想  就夠了

派對動物

-

那現實中  已經有太多讓步

~

你忘了笑  還忘了能哭

終於結束的起點

-

未來的我們  也許能說聲好久不見  好久不見

任意門

-

你問我全世界是哪裡最美？

答案是「你身邊」  只要是你身邊

As for the other songs, I've gone through the lyrics but it hasn't really set into me yet, cause... CANNOT HEAR CLEARLY IN THE SONGSSSS!! Hahahahahah!! 

Dead

It feels like death with so many things on my mind.

#1 on my mind now is, WHEN WILL MY BACK STOP ACHING.
Wait, it isn't even aching. It's more like pain. It started with the side of my hip. I thought it would go away after some day. But it went on and now even my back hurts like mad.

#2 is something useless. Like, if I should go to Bras Basah to check out if they already stock up the album hahahah.

Last day of first half of 2016

TMR MARKS THE FIRST DAY OF THE SECOND HALF OF 2016, AND....

I'm still the same!
At the same place, doing the same thing, but feeling a littleeee bit more motivated.

I'm currently at the stage in between falling sick and not. My throat feels dry as desert. But it's not to the painful extent yet. I'v been drinking so much water I had stomach cramps this morning -.-

This week feels painfully slow, we're only at Thursday! Tmr's finally Friday!! I already figured out how nua I wanna be this weekend. Gonna watch videos, figure out how to place order for the pre-order, and sort out some other things.

Cannot wait for Aug and Sept to be overrrrrrr. My most dreaded months of the year.

DECISIONS

Being the impatient me, I cannot decide if I want to do the pre-order online, Airfrov the album, or just wait patiently for it to be stocked in Singapore. But then there are chances of not getting it, idk maybe not enough stocks or something? Fer says to call and leave my number for them to call me back. I could just patiently wait for Rock Records to update their FB. Keyword: I COULD. HAHAHA. I have until 17th July to decide if I wanna pre-order from the Taiwan record company. But idk how much I'll have to pay for shipping. Ok, I can email to ask. & I shall do that.

Things I do

Up bright and early on a Saturday morning.. JUST TO BUY TICKETS TO MAYDAY'S CONCERT IN AUGUST! Then I have my mum, and Fer making sure I'm awake (': Things my family and friends do for me~ 3 more minutes until the sales start!!!!!! SO EXCITED!!

// GUESS WHO IS GOING TO THE CONCERT!! *\o/* //

How do you do it?

Is there a need to compare everything? Why can't people just control the tone of their voice? Will kicking up a big fuss really solve anything? Do you even think about your own actions before you talk about others? Why do people like to put themselves above everyone else? Does it kill to just put yourself down? Why are people so contradicting? Why are people so two-faced? How can you talk about someone, and the next moment, you talk to the person in question like as if you are so close? How can you do the things that you are doing, and still think that you are above everyone else?

Everyday, I try to be the bigger and better person than I was. But there are just sometimes, things, and people who gets on your nerves, no matter how good you try to be.

This week is terrible.

Labour Day Weekend

Started my long weekend with an interview on Friday! But I got the permission to not return back to office after work, so.. weekend start earlier for me, yay! But because it was a normal working day, got home quite early to laze around, watch drama! 

Saturday started with morning breakfast with the folks, followed by attending a funeral ): So heart-wrenching, I cannot ): 

Went home to shower, then headed off to my auntie's shop for the shop's 30th Anniversary. 

Hahahahah! Dk why only 30th got celebrations, but since invited then ok.. Hahahah! My uncle was mentioning next time put MJ table there then can start immediately, but cannot, police will catch hahahahaha. Then cousin said "This one not my area, if something happen, I cannot do anything hor" HAHAHAH! 

Hoped over to my auntie's house from the shop! And had a very bitchy conversation. HAHAHAH!  

Sunday was spent out of home. Shopping with mother and sis, before going for our favourite ytf for supper! We spent an hour in Sephora looking at make up omg but all I bought was a lip crayon, because they didn't carry NYX face powder at the GCW store. 

Yesterday was just.. tired. Very tired. Slept at 3am and woke up at 9.30am. CAN DIE. But no matter what, I couldn't go back to sleep. So I watched shows on my phone, until noon. 

THIS MORNING FELT LIKE DEATH BECAUSE I ONLY SLEPT AT 1AM LAST NIGHT! D:

Lucky it's only 4-days work week! Mum's bday tmr, dinner on Thur with my bestf! ^^ 

Dilemma

To go to Beijing only, or to make a trip down to Shanghai as well?
I could cover Shanghai in 3 days, which means I can arrive in Shanghai and take a train down to Beijing and leave from Beijing back to Singapore. I just checked the tickets for this route and it's only SGD506. But then I have to factor in train tickets from Shanghai to Beijing, and accommodation in Shanghai. Which is quite reasonable. But main reason would be to visit Shanghai Disneyland hahahhaha. Don't know if it's a good idea cause I'm pretty sure it'd be packed with.. local Chinese.

Hmmm, decisions.

7 more hours till end of 14 Apr

Today has got to be the worst day ever in 2016.

I've been having troubles sleeping for the past 2 nights. First night my sis kept moving ard and it was almost impossible for me to sleep. Yesterday was worse. She kept clearing her nose in the loudest way possible. Everytime I'm so close to falling asleep, she does it. THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. Fml.

2 nights of not enough sleep, and I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, to make things worse. What could be worse right? Yupp, thought things will only get better but no. More things came up at work, my sneakers are giving me blister. Yupppppp o.o

Thinking of cancelling my dinner plans later but I feel bad doing it. So I'm either heading straight home after dinner, or I could catch a movie. But we'll see. Ice cream might make me feel better. But I don't even wanna interact with any human being right now, not even my closest friend or anything. I have this I cannot be bothered feel now. I couldn't even maintain a straight face just now.
Part of me is using all the strength I have inside me to hold me back from confronting my sis. Why the fuck does she not want to sleep at night for fuck's sake. So late do what? Rob bank ah? -.- Just sleep la.

//

Something to inject a little sunshine in my very dark day, I started on DOTS, and I could understand why everyone is swooning over Song Joong Ki. Not bad, I must say. Finally a decent female lead. Actually all decent la. Except for one that I really don't like (Hint: Heirs, Pinocchio *shifty eyes*) HHAHAHAHA PRETTY OBVIOUS.

Heading for dinner in awhile and I'm still feeling full from lunch. But of course, I finished lunch only at 3pm, how to be hungry by 5?

-.-

08/04/16

We're into the 4th month of the year!! *\o/*

Sometimes it feels like time really flies. Other times, you just want time to fly.

Here's what I've been up to! (Whatever that comes to my mind)

1. Caught Zootopia with Fer on Tue!
2. Nic the fox is sucha gentleman, even better than real life guys these days.
3. One loud guy in the cinema, 1.2 the time laughing at him instead
4. Caught Batman vs Superman last week
5. Had my first box of salted popcorns
6. The first popcorn had me wishing that it was a mix of sweet and salty
7. Then I wished I was just unlucky that one salted one mixed in and I was just unlucky
8. Sorry, life is not always rainbows and butterflies, WHOLE BOX WAS SALTED >:
9. Front part was boring and I needed to talk so badly
10. That was my first "superhero" movie
11. Sick of finding for jobs already
12. FINALLY FRIDAY!
13. My hands are itching to buy a Kenzo watch
14. But I cannot decide if I need it
15. HUNGRY AF RIGHT NOW
16. Cannot wait for lunch
17. Maybe I should watch Cheese in the Trap now
18. Cannot wait to watch DOTS to feeeeel the hype
19. This was actually drafted on Wed, but only finished today.
20. (:

13 March 2016 // Grad Ceremony

Wanted to continue on CNY post but.. NVM. HAHAHA. I figured this is more recent and.. more things to put up heheh!

//

I OFFICIALLY GRADUATED ON 13 MARCH 2016!! :D

Started off the day by... rolling ard at home. I'm not kidding hahahah. Left only at ard 12 plus to meet my bestfriend for dinner! ^^ I Uber-ed there because got IT Show discount code hahhaahahha and ended up being late cause the guy cannot find his way to my home! /:

But nvm. Had lunch and some coffee otherwise I don't think I can last till 9pm hahhahahah. But really I think we met too early cause we had nothing to do after that hahahahahahah.

We look sooooo awkward omg! 

With mummy!! 

The bouquet, tbh, became a burden after awhile hahahahaha. But you know.. People have, I also want hahahahahahah. Bad habit!!

IM + KOL Lecturer! Probably the only friendly lecturer! 

Lucky my hair very on point on that day hehehe! 

My feet was hurting by dinner and I was sooo afraid it would slip off my feet hahahahah but surprisingly, I couldn't feel anything when I was on stage hahahahahha! 

Aww, Shep took a photo of me on stage. Which then made me feel bad cause when he was on stage, I was sitting there restlessly, feeling nervous and all -.- Until I totally forgot abt everything hahahah.

One more with my bestfriend! ^^ 

2 years before this picture, on one random day when we were having tea, we were just talking and totally have no idea that we enrolled into the same school until we say we going to start school in the same month. Hahahah! I think it went something like...

S: I starting school in Sept leh! 

G: Ehh, me also!! Where you studying at?

S: Kaplan 

G: Me tooooo Murdoch?

S: Yahhh

G: COPY. 

HAHAHAHAHAHHA! Then after many many many months of complaining abt assignments and exams, lecturers and teammates/classmates (mostly me complaining), HERE WE AREEEE! (': 

Last one with my mummy!!!! :D Or more like my pillar! Hahahah! 

It seems like I'm quite friendless in uni hor.... Hahahah! I have friends ok! Just that they are not graduating yet ): So, I look like I have no friends hahahahha! Lucky Shep same session. Otherwise really is no friend at all. HAHAHAHAH!! 

I'm soooo glad I completed my degree! I had to take sup paper for my very first unit in uni, and it was DEMORALIZING AS SHIT. I was soooo close to quitting school. Then final term, so close to dropping one unit because 3 was really too much to handle that I even doubt myself, and thought I should have listened to my friends to take 2 units instead of 3. 

BUT I DID IT, YAY! 

Random What Not

Doing what I hate doing the most now - Backing up my phone.
I honestly hate to sync my phone to backup all my files but I know if I don't do it, I'd regret big time. I need to buy an external harddisk but I've been procrastinating since.... 4 IT shows ago? THAT'S LIKE A YEAR?! Hahaha yeahh. I'm thinking of buying multiple USB instead. Like 1 USB for 1 category kinda thing. But I'd probably lose all the USB. Hahaahah and forget which USB contain what files hhahahahah wtf.

Thought I should update this space a bit, since I have all the privacy I need right now. Hahaahah I'm suppose to be doing some workout but... maybe later. Maybe.

Meanwhile, I'm gonna import' em photos and try to clear back logs. Not like anyone reads them anyway but it's FMI when I'm.. older? Hahaahaha!

Feels like...

DEATH.

I am sooooooo tired like physically. 

And so sick of looking for jobs. No one has called me back so far. It's not like as if my resume is so bad. I have at least 3 years of experience. And I'm not evening applying for managerial position -.- 

Just hoping that the 3 hotels will call me back and at least give me a chance to go for an interview. 

// 

Adults stuff aside. Hahahah! I think there's something wrong with me like, I need to see the doctor kind of something wrong. Have been feeling short sharp pain in my eyes. But sometimes they itch like mad and I start tearing. Another thing is. I've been have giddy spells and feeling nauseous. Ytd it was soooo bad. Felt giddy before dinner and I thought it was hunger but after dinner was no better. Then as I was trying to fall asleep, has this stomach pain. It was so painful it made me feel giddy again. And few days ago I had this terrible pull, also in my stomach then made me giddy and nauseous as well. AM I DYING? Hahahah I kid. But serious. If this goes on, I better visit the doctor ): 

//

Caught How To Be Single last night! Not baddddd. Tbh it got a little boring at some time. Or maybe it's not my type of shows. I'm the.. sci-fi/fantasy/action kind. Hahhahaha!  

Life of a part time Uni Student

Really is nothing much. HAHAHAHAHAH!

Everyday just revolves around home - work - school - home. Then repeat for x number of days, depending on which day got school. Hahahah.

1st Term - Sept 2014
Worried and excited because I'm finally meeting new people and worried cause.. I'm super anti-social one what if no one wants to be friends with me hahahahhaha. But all was good. Except the lecturer for one of the modules. She made things sound so difficult to the extend that I wanted to quit school immediately. I was sooooo troubled after her class I can never forget hahahhahahaha. But slowly slowly the momentum picked up and everything was good. UNTIL I GET THE RESULTS FOR EXAM AND I NEEDED TO TAKE SUP PAPER FOR ONE MODULE FML. And that was when I wanted to quit school again cause 1st term only already like this hahahahhaha. But lucky never quit la of course~~ Look where am I now~~

2nd Term - Jan 2015
Wasn't as bad as I expected. 2 modules, but I only managed to enroll into the same class as Shan for 1 module. And I had a Saturday morning class. But when I knew I was in the same class as Hanna for law class.. I was looking forward to Saturday mornings sia hahahahah!! Nothing much this term because only 1 group assignment.

First day of 2nd term!! 

Made to do stupid things like this.. and for the entire term -.- 

One of the days we reunited with Fifee!! 

Another random day after group assignment discussion. 

We look happy but really, we were burning with hatred inside hahahaaahah. 

This was end of all group presentations for the term!! 

*miss my hair colour*

Random photo of 3 of us cause this must be one Saturday after class where I met them for movie dinner and went out till late hahahahhaaha! 

Another random day! 

When we crashed Adrian's law class before exam! 

3rd Term - May 2015
SAME CLASS AS SO MANY PEOPLE I KNOW! Happy like bird. But it's also where things go down. Not my results but more like relations with people. Don't know what happened in between also. But maybe I just go a bit sick and tired of how some people are behaving, and how they treat other people. Oh wells. All is good now. What is meant to be, will be. Maybe we were only meant to be classmates, not even friends. BUT NVM, ALL IS GOOD!! I was looking forward to classes every week because I was in the same class as Hanna and she makes class more tolerable. Really.

FINAL TERM - SEPT 2015
Final term so just chiong and take 3 modules. Although a lot of people advise me not to. Because I was also working at the same time. But no, time is not on my side. I went ahead to take 3 modules. Mid term I really wanted to just cry and die hahahaha. The stress really no joke. And because of certain issues at work + people in school. Actually it wasn't so much of the workload. It was more of how people were behaving that I couldn't take it. There was nothing to look forward to at all. Class was more than boring. Never dreaded school sooooo much before. And I really, really hated almost everyone that I had to interact with. And because school days was only Tue/Wed before this term, so by Thursday, normally I'm burnt out already. I just wanted time to fly, people to leave me alone. I just wanted to go class and go home. But nooooo. Only 3 hours in school, people cannot leave me alone. They just had to step on my tail and make life miserable for me. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Ok kua zhang max but really. I always hated Thursdays! But okkk, I bite on and I'm done! Hahahah!!

So... my 16 months in Murdoch was alright. Except for the last 4 months (which I really really hated). Hhahahahaha! I thought going into the working world, I have seen it all. But no. There are so much more that I have not seen yet. How selfish people can be. How irresponsible people can get. And meeting people who are even more narrow minded than I am. REALLYY. I thought I was bad enough. But apparently there are people worst than me. But it's ok. There are more to expect in the working world. I have not seen it all. So I thank the people I have crossed path with in the 16 months, for giving me life lessons on how people can be.

Balancing work and studies wiseeee. I think it's ok. Hahahaha but mainly because I have nothing much to do at work anyway. Boss even gave me time to do my assignments, and study for exam in office. Maybe that was why I found it manageable. Hahahahah! At first I hated exam period. But I slowly grown to like it because that means.. LONG LEAVES! Hahahahahah! I don't mind studying but half the time I'm just sitting there, getting worried over not being able to finish studying -.- And not being able to remember anything hahahahah wtf.

Now that school's out, NO MORE LONG LEAVES TO LOOK FORWARD TO. Hahahahah. Those long leaves were like... confirm have to take one hahahahahah. But now no more reasons already hahahahah. I'm glad to be done with school because I don't have to face people Idw to face anymore.

NEXT UP WILL BE GRADUATION CEREMONY BEFORE I CLOSE THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE. So excited but so worried I'll fall on stage also HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF.